This is my life. and its perfection.

there are two lessons everyone must learn

one is to understand that we are alone.

the other is to say goodbye.

 

no matter how many times it gets said to me

"i know what you are going through" or "i'm here for you"

it still means absolutely nothing.

when you say something to me,

actually speak the truth.

because when you say something

and i can see in your eyes that you are thinking something else,

i lose your trust.

tell me the truth.

if the truth is that you are saying it because you love me,

i will listen and then cry because it means something.

if you lie,

i will be crying on the inside.

dont break my heart,

heal it.

i know that no matter how much they fade,

some wounds never heal.

dont make our friendship another knife that drips blood from my heart.

all i ask is that you try.

 

i learned today that we must say goodbye.

goodbye to ourselves

and goodbye to our friends.

what more are the people i talk to

and see everyday

than people i will eventually forget?

i will never, ever forget some

and it hurts so badly to say goodbye.

how can i go on without them?

stay with me

call out to me so i can hear your voice.

 

and in the end,

we have to say goodbye to ourselves.

goodbye to the happiness and comfort we once knew

and venture down the empty path.

alone.

i am saying goodbye to the girl i once was,

who was afraid to smile

who tried to ruin herself

who never cried because then everyone could see

who never wanted support from anyone

who was alone then.

but at the same time i am also saying goodbye to the girl i am now.

the girl who loves to be with her best friends

who wishes a smile were permenantely on her face

who doesnt regret her past or the present

who has taken strength from the sting of criticism

and who has built herself a place to stay.

i am saying goodbye to my past and present self.

i will be who i am.

no more, no less.

but why do none listen?

 

<3 cally