This is my life. and its perfection.

....i would let it in.

of course i am not upset with my life.

in fact, i could not be more content.

but i would be perfectely accepting if it were my time to go.

today i went to church for the first time in a few months.

after leaving a catholic grade school for a public high school

it has been much easier to put my faith in the back of my mind

and forget about it.

but today sitting there

i was hearing the preacher

and actually listening to him

for the first time.

i have before

but this was the first time i was

inspired to change for the will of God.

those 9 years of going to Mass every single week

and my epiphany came after i stopped.

my wake-up call in life has come.

why do i worry so much about figuring out my life?

God already knows what is in store for me

and i have finally come to terms with that fact.

everything about me rests in His hands.

now it is time to make the change

to accept what He gives me as it comes

without question

and with faith of the deepest kind.

Jesus walked and stood alone on His path through life.

just as we do.

He had friends along the way

but He had to go on alone.

we walk through the valley of darkness alone.

but with God we are not.

He is the shining light we follow

never knowing what is ahead

simply having that faith is all we need.

but nobody really can ever find it.

we become so enveloped in the material things of this world

that we dont ever think we want to leave.

i have stopped thinking that way.

may my sins be forgiven

and my faith never end.

may i take God's hand

wherever it may lead me

without fail.

i am not the girl who goes around putting shame to others of different faiths.

now i go to a school where many students don't have a religion at all

i am again accepting of that.

i will not condemn them

or ask them to change

but just to be accepting of me and what i believe.

i will not pretend i am the perfect example of my religion

for i am far from it

and never will be.

all i ask is that instead of ignoring the fact

that i believe in God

simply ask whatever questions you might have

and i will answer them the best way i can.

i do not ask that you change your opinion of religion or of me.

but instead listen and tell as you wish.

i am the same person.

<3 cally